Susie and I were in Canada on the first leg of our first journey of 2016. We had planned to spend the New Year with Chuck and Lency Spezzano in Hawaii before attending the Psychology of Vision Trainers conference. Susie was going to take in the sights before returning to the UK as she has already resigned from the programme. After the conference I had planned to continue to China to teach a 10-day seminar before returning home at the end of January.
But now I could not feel myself and after some discussion with Susie we called for help. In no time at all we were in the ambulance heading for Vancouver General Hospital where immediately on arrival I was given a CT scan and then shortly afterwards a new clot busting agent that can reverse the effects of a stroke which was obviously what had happened. I was in hospital for 38 hours and released to stay with a close friend just a few blocks from the hospital.
The effects of this was to realise that I had been metaphorically smacked over the head with a large piece of 4 by 2. It was a major wake up call that I was off and I was really missing something. I used a powerful mantra to help with the early stages and begin the correction process. The words of power from A Course in Miracles were, “Nothing can prevail against the Son of God who commends his spirit into the Hands of his Father.” This was really helpful through the early challenges.
Soon it was time to look at the bigger picture and why I needed this wake up call. Obviously my plans for happiness were not going in the right direction, especially when it came to my body and my health. I have often spoken of my need for change around my lifestyle, my weight especially, but in truth over the last few years I had only paid lip service to this. I know what needs to be achieved, I know what is being called for but, in truth, I only tinkered around the edges and did not make the changes I know were called for.
Now after my minor stroke I have entered a whole new world, a world of big names: atherosclerosis, L-arginine, pyrodoxal-5-phosphate, and also a world of contradictions. A world of heart disease, of diabetes, of obesity and a world fascinated with money. A short time spent on the web with an open mind will tell you that all the solutions to our ills are readily and naturally available and yet we don’t apply our knowledge. We obviously have other interests!
It would be easy to throw stones at the pharmaceutical industry, the sugar industry and on and on but in truth it has taken me only a little self examination to recognise the same in me. While I profess to know the answers have I really applied them? A large piece of 4 by 2 says “No”.
I know what to do, the only question is will I do it and not just for January but for hereafter?
And when I don’t apply my knowledge am I willing to do the healing required sooner rather than later!
Can my new year’s resolution be to give up the lip service? There is a part in all of us that naturally knows what is right, in our health, in our relationships, in our world. Now is the time to get out of the denial and apply that inner knowing, to really make the changes that we are being called to make.
Thanks to all of you who have sent messages of love and support; I assure you, they are helping me to learn my lessons.